"begging ocean please help me drown these memories"
2008-03-23, 11:21 p.m.

I wrote this big long long long letter but I'm not going to post it, because if I do, I might give in, and let out, and my resolve will be broken.
Instead I'll post some lyrics and hopefully that will take care of it.

I tried talking to my sister about it, but I couldn't because it would just be pointless. I'm leaving, and there won't be anything left of what there was. I will be gone. And when I'm gone all I'll have left are memories that sometimes I cherish and sometimes I hate because they won't go away.

Maybe when I'm sitting in a chair in New Orleans knowing I won't ever come into contact with what was, I'll post it because I've saved it. It's beautiful in it's own way and deserves preservation of some kind.

fucking melodramatic. sorry.

enjoy the song, it's a tegan and sara!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=3kXkgSk5gq0&feature=related

"Hop A Plane"

I took the train back
Back to where I came from
I took it all alone
It's been so long I know
Imagine me
There my heart asleep with no air
Begging
"ocean please, help me drown these memories"
All I need to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine
I'm moving east
There's somewhere far away from
The sight of my hands
The sight of me not moving
You can't just hop a plane
And come and visit me again
I claim it's in my head
And I regret offering
All I need to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine
All I want to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine
You take a second take a second
Take a year take a year
You took me out and took me in
And told me all of this
And then you take a moment
Take a moment
Take a year
Take a year
You help me out
I listen in
You taught me all of this
And then
All I want to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine
All I want to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine
All I need to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine
All I want to hear is that
You're not mine
You're not mine