"I've got this thing that i consider my only art, of fuckin people over"
2007-04-18, 11:29 p.m.

I dont know what I'm doing with myself. *shrug* i'm prancing around campus, paying thousands of dollars in tution, working myself to the bone, and i don't know what the fuck i'm doing. i don't know where the fuck this is all going.
where is it going!?!?

i'm not not ok with it, but i'm not ok with it either, and this dude who shot up VA tech is fucking SCARY as shit, and as much as i want to empathize, i think he had major major major people and brain issues that were mostly his fault, and i can't BELIEVE it was so easy for him to get guns, you would think we'd learned by now not to give people who were previously institutionalized, guns. just a thought.

and i wish we all knew the secert to life, really i do.
but funny thing is i dont think there is a secret, i think we just want there to be one so bad, so we can justify the things we do, say we dont have control because we dont know "the purpose" or "the meaning"
fuck em both. why go searching forever for something vonegut himself (god rest his soul) couldn't find.

aiyah, i need to go study and do my homework instead of blathering here.

p.s. and for sir shout, I've had cereal thrown at me by someone who was upset, and they didn't apologize either. cereal is much more wet than pizza,
i wish you all the luck in your new endeavors (sp?), and let me know if you need anything.

Everything that keeps me together is falling apart/Ive got
This thing that I consider my only art of fucking people over.
My boss just quit the job says hes goin out to find blind
Spots and hell do it.
The 3rd planet is sure that theyre being watched by an
Eye in the sky that cant be stopped.
When you get to the promise land your gonna shake that
Eyes hand.
Your heart felt good it was drippin pitch and made of wood.
And your hands and knees felt cold and wet on the grass to me.
Outside naked, shiverin looking blue, from the cold
Sunlight thats reflected off the moon.
Baby cum angels fly around you reminding you we used
To be three and not just two.
And thats how the world began.
And thats how the world will end.
A 3rd had just been made and we were swimming in the
Water, didnt know then was it a son was it a daughter.
When it occurred to me that the animals are swimming
Around in the water in the oceans in our bodies and
Another had been found another ocean on the planet
Given that our blood is just like the atlantic.
And how.
The universe is shaped exactly like the earth if you go
Straight long enough youll end up where you were.
Your heart felt good it was drippin pitch and made of wood.
And your hands and knees felt cold and wet on the grass to me.
Outside naked, shiverin looking blue, from the cold
Sunlight thats reflected off the moon.
Baby cum angels fly around you reminding you we used
To be three and not just two.
And thats how the world began.
And thats how the world will end.