"i want a mexican, whooo, radio" wall of voodo
2004-12-06, 10:32 p.m.

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i feel absolutley and utterly miserable. Today we played white elephant (a game which i absolutley and utterly HHHAATTEE! It's so not a fucking christmas game.it's competition, and people always get hurt. i hate it) in any case, i got this little shower radio.
after the game was over, we were all quite, and out of nowhere, sharon's looks at me and said "i want the radio"
i thought she was joking, so i was all "i won it missy" and she begged. she fucking begged for it in front of all those children, and she pouted like a little kid. I was so fucking pissed. I just gave it to her, and left, to go "make a phone call" outside where it was nice and cold.
If she had asked nicely, i would have absolutley no problem giving it to her. it was all of five bucks, and i could go buy one easily. no problem.
but for her to whine, and in front of everyone, like a little child. it's the fact that she didn't even give me a chance to say no if i wanted to. As much as i wanted it, i would've given it to her, simply because it's christmas, and i really don't mind. but for her to put me on the spot like that. I think what's just killing me that most, is that i gave it to her, and i hate her. usually i fucking love giving gifts. (if i pick them . . .long story)
i love hearing people say thank you, and i like to think that the gifts i give them won't be usefull, but when they're really stressed, it's something they can look at and laugh, or just listen to, or read for a little break from life. whatever. i enjoy it, i have no problem with giving.
but i dont feel like i gave it to her, i feel like it was wrenched from me, that i didn't have a choice. not even that, but i was NOt going to sit at that table and bicker with her like a little child about it. and she knew i wouldn't either, because she's done it before. she's fucking done it before, and she loves that i wont bicker back with her. she's seriously testing my patience though.
*sigh*
in any case, i hope she enjoys it. there's alot of people in her family, and her and her brothers share a bathroom, so it's like she wont be the only one enjoying it. I tutor her brothers in calc, and geo. and I like them. so i'll just think of it as a gift to them.
i wish i wasn't so hateful about it.

in any case,
lots of studying.

oh, and apparently i looked really hot today, you guys missed out! I was in heels and everything! i went to this pool place next to work, to pick up food, with renata (a coworker) and we got stares and whistles. she llllaauughed. and she's all "hey, you look hot" and i was like "apparently we both do!" it was nice.)
ciao!